Protection, Ks, Land I call home, most days

So I was on my town's homepage which was last updated March 2007, and well it's alot like my town, not alot there but plenty of character. Clicking on the business link led me to the Valley Manor, the rest home. I'm not quite sure if I could call that a business per say, unless Protection is selling old people. I wonder who that would be a market to?

Welp been another excitin' day, a day of driving and helping out friends. But that's not where my mind is today. Marriage is. God, no, I'm nowhere near that road. Might of been once but I think i just had blurry vision then. No, my faithful viewers, er viewer, my boss has found a man and has set a date for June 28 in less than month. Meeting dating marriage, bing bang boom. In a month's time. Is it the age of each of them, love, or fear of being alone. I'm not quite sure, I'm not even sure what I think of marriage. Is it something to reach for, is it something to drive away from as fast as i can. I'm know that marriage is not the end of chapter just a new one to work even harder for. Yay, work. To my boss, congrats and best of luck. For me, I'm going driving.

The from the deep depth of my room

So I told my only subscriber that I was planning to go home and write something deep and dark and sit my room and be emo, from that came this:

I sit.
I sat.
The coffee stains on my shirt makes me feel pain.
Pain from Heat.
Pain from the bleach I will have to buy.
It's dark in here.
There is a light.
But I am too lazy to go to the switch.
If i had eggs I would have ham and eggs if I had ham.
I must be hungry.
The floor is cold like my soul.
Or it is the a/c vent I sat on.

yep.

Ready for something deep and dark

That's great

My quick video for choir tour 09

The door of opportunity, right? Is it close, jammed, already opened, or just peeling it's paint from the sides? Maybe so, maybe not, either way the door is there, old and rusted or new and with padlocks, it's up to each person. I'm made my choice, go a snap shot to remember the choice and jumped it. Yep, haha, that's me trying to be deep, life there and I might as well live it.












Photo Credit:
Blake Carter, Oxford Door, 09

Having a great night

So it's been a while, well really, a whole year, almost. And I find myself at close to the same impasse of life. Single, I've had my girl friends from time to time, but I find myself closer and closer to being what I was always afaird of in High School, being alone. Granted I'm young, I'm about to be a senior, but I can't shake the feeling that I had all there is sometimes. My track record isn't always the best, but there it is yet again lol. Maybe it's because I have the couples of all couples right next to me, always in love, sitting next to each on the couch just there. Granted they get alot of flack cause they are together alot, like always, but even so, I can't help but think I want a fraction of that in my life. Could that be my problem, the image of love? Sure let's go with that